finding freedom: doing this for myself so I help liberate others

In the Media, In The News

What a privilege it is to be able to step back from social media commentary to collect + reengage my thoughts, values and feelings around the occupation in Palestine and the current social media climate. Folks being impacted by this, whether directly or indirectly, do not have that privilege and as someone who strives to be an ally, it’s time I step up and step back into the conversation.

I’ve seen friends raise money, match donations, share education and while I don’t necessarily think the world needs another thinkpiece, I think it’s the least I can do is share some reflections + resources in hopes of demonstrating my values by contributing my thoughts in a way that can resonate with others and lead to learnings – for others and/or for me!

I post about DEI and social justice to create space for dialogue, uncomfortable truths and shared understanding.

This is an open invitation to be a part of that 💌

For me, the lens of being Black / a visible minority brings an additional perspective to this conversation + other sociopolitical / social justice topics. It’s how my entire worldview is shaped and I cannot and will not decouple this viewpoint. This is why I decided to post this on my blog – I have no plans on relaunching it, but there’s a lot of noise on social media and I wanted to be intentional about how I add to the volume. This is also where I got the courage to begin sharing my thoughts, inquiries, discourse + discussions. It’s a brave space, rather than the space I’ve been hiding in looking for what felt like safety.

Poem by Nayirrah Waheed, from her book salt.

A lot of the posts I’ve been seeing have been activating (read: triggering) in the way I see people trying to show up for Palestinians and being deemed to be antisemitic and/or unsupportive of the Jewish community and this sentiment feels particularly painful as it brings back the hypervigilance I felt for months when George Floyd was murdered, I was doing the balancing act of trying desperately to protect the feelings of non-Black people + their guilt surrounding anti-Blackness while also trying to explain and advocate for the historical, systemic and targeted oppression + violence towards my community but still being called “racist” towards white people (amongst other less friendly words)…

When I speak about Black Lives Matter, I do not need to qualify that statement with the inclusion of other racial groups (who also experience harm and discrimination in different ways) because I am intentionally centering the Black experience and the systemic racism that specifically impacts my community and people also continually try to misconstrue or dilute this movement in the same way I see happening with the Free Palestine or Palestinian liberation movement.

Instagram post from ustaz_marwan,
posted in 2021

And let’s be real, race is scary to talk about!! It is often intentionally left out because it is uncomfortable and centering the oppression connected to racism often means decentring our perception of ourselves + our identity and better understanding + focusing on the privileges and complexities of how society perceives us. In my case, I grew up in a lot of primarily white communities. When I was 6, I was told by another child that I should “go back to Africa” and the school’s solution to that was making me and this girl become best friends, her parents hosting me for sleepovers and playdates for years but never mentioning that day again.

My experience in predominantly white spaces continued at Western University and before I was able to connect with the Black/POC community there, I was grateful to meet a lot of friends who happened to be Jewish and they taught me so many wonderful things about Jewish culture and religion and because of this, I would completely avoid the topic of Israel and Palestine. Partly because I didn’t feel like I knew enough to discuss it but also because I would see many of the skewed narratives in the media and conversations, now primarily being the generalization of terrorism, the idea that Hamas = all Palestinians or Palestinians being “savages” etc. – which we know is deeply connected the Islamophobia we hold re: 9/11. This has been weaponized against Palestinians and Muslims broadly, and is clearly seen in the US’ vested interest and military funding in Israel – and when I was in university and years afterwards, I thought bringing that up in conversation or sharing any info on social media that was not from the Israeli/Jewish perspective meant being ostracized from a community that I was so grateful to feel to be a part of, especially while I felt disconnected from my own and didn’t know any Black people at uni in my first years then, and a community that I still feel such love and care for now.

“People avoid uncomfortable conversations to ‘keep the peace.’ But peace isn’t the goal of a relationship, love is.
And when we love someone, we have the hard conversations in service of that love.”

– Jillian Turecki

Although this feeling still lingers, I’ve grown older + stronger in my convictions and I realize these sentiments are not mutually exclusive and I cannot ignore Israel’s colonization of Palestine and there is no need for me to strive for neutrality because this is not a 1v1 duel. It is a fact that the indoctrination of Zionist views along with the privilege of proximity to whiteness + the very common unconscious bias towards racism (this privilege + bias is very often left outside of the conversation) has created a very dangerous and harmful way of thinking AND has created an even more dangerous and harmful reality for Palestinians and I unequivocally support their liberation.

Do I think that liberation should be at the cost of innocent lives? Absolutely not, this doesn’t justify any of the violence that has occurred and given the historical context and the atrocities the Jewish community has faced (+ the antisemitism that exists to this day), the grief and fear of what is happening to Israelis is palpable and I feel for that very deeply.

But in the same way, I shouldn’t have to reiterate that white lives are important while I say Black Lives Matter, I think there has to be space for the unconformable truth that the proximity to whiteness that Israelis and Jewish folks possess is an additional layer to the binary bias being shared online + in the media and the power imbalance that not only has been asserted over Palestinian people during the 75+ years in the occupation of the land, it also is being asserted in the conversation of who gets to be advocated for + provided aid + supported without consequence and who gets to be simply acknowledged.

We all have more work to do, work that doesn’t just happen on this screen. Someone said these are generation-defining times and I want to show up in a way that not only creates better outcomes for us now, but for those long after us. We are having conversations and dealing with conflicts that we could’ve never imagined, the way forward is uncomfortable and requires us to stretch our minds and advocate for what’s in our heart so we can find freedom…

To… Free myself from fear of opinion for my values + views.

To… Free the BIPOC community from the pervasiveness of whiteness that stifles action and provide us with more love instead.

To… Free Palestine. period.

Instagram post from beausia, posted in 2023

Here’s a non-exhaustive list of learnings and ways to engage / advocate and receive support – please feel free to share more with me!

Resources to learn:

Palestinian Feminist Collective Toolkit

Today, Explained – Israel, Hamas, and how we got here

The Slow Factory Instagram Post – DM FAQ on Systemic Change for Collective Liberation

Anti-Racism Daily – How do I both condemn Hamas and support Israeli and Palestinian people?

IfNotNow – Learn More From Organizations in Israel/Palestine

Resources to help:

IfNotNow (donate)

Medical Aid for Palestinians (donate)

Palestinian Centre for Human Rights (donate)

Jewish Voice for Peace (donate)
flag: there has been criticism of this group for allegedly being primarily led by non-Jewish folks and indirectly contributing to / giving rise to antisemitism cited here. I engage with this organization via social media (follow them and agree with sentiments that they have shared, etc.) and I am aligned with their organization’s mission, but since there have been some Jewish folks who have stated their disapproval of this organization, I think it’s important to be critical of their content and advocacy so please do your research!

Freedom Future – Letter to U.S. Congress for the defunding of Israel’s army (sign + share)

National Council of Canadian Muslims – Letter to Prime Minister to stand up for the human rights of Gazans and to work for a just and lasting peace (sign + share)

Resources for support:

LinkedIn Post – To my fellow Palestinian refugees in the diaspora (self-care tips)

Peer-Support Group for Palestinians

How to cope with photos, videos coming out of Israel-Hamas conflict: Experts (CW: includes 2 photos of buildings post the air strikes in Gaza)

10 Organizations Helping Israelis Cope with Trauma

guest blog: T.H.U.G.

In the Media

This week, I’ve got a special treat for y’all: a guest blogger!

The lovely Savannah aka The Student Foodie is going to give her two cents on the new movie, The Hate U Give!

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Image from TheStudentFoodie.ca

Spoiler alert: Savannah is not black, but I wanted to hear her perspective on a highly racial film so she and I can compare and contrast our thoughts after watching it.

I invite you to check out Savannah’s blog: https://thestudentfoodie.ca
and without further adieu, here’s her take on T.H.U.G.!

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Image from Foxmovies.com

 

 

Privilege test!

  1. When you were younger, did your parents give you:
    a) The Sex Talk
    b) The Traffic Stop Talk

 

  1. During a traffic stop you:
    a) Snapchat a picture of your speeding ticket to send to your friends with the caption “f*ck the police!”
    b) Fear for your life and use your phone to record evidence

 

  1. Have you seen someone die?
    a) No, the only death I’ve seen is on the big screen
    b) Yes, I’ve watched close friends get killed

 

If you answered A for all of the above, you are PRIVILEGED!

If you answered B, then your experiences resemble those of Starr Carter and the larger population of African-Americans represented in The Hate U Give (hyperlink to movie review: https://variety.com/2018/film/reviews/the-hate-u-give-review-1202933118/).

 

Based on Angie Thomas’ YA novel and adapted for film by George Tillman Jr., The Hate U Give follows Starr, a young black girl who witnesses her friend Khalil, an unarmed black man, get shot and killed by a white police officer during a traffic stop. In other words, a typical American news headline.

 

Though, I was blown away by the film (my friends and I ugly cried the whole time), I was not surprised. If the police brutality, anti-black racism and overall injustice were shocking to you, then you are probably part of the problem, or at least complicit. In just two hours, Tillman Jr. paints a vivid picture of America’s racial division, touching on everything from the prison industrial complex to intra-community violence.

 

Here are a few key lessons from the film:


Code Switching is a “survival technique”

Like many POC, Starr adopts two different personas to adhere to her black and white worlds. When she is at home in her predominantly black neighbourhood, she acts one way and when she is at her predominantly white school, she adjusts herself to behave another. She exists in a state of suspension where she is often too white in her black community, but too black in her white school.

 

Racism isn’t always overt

As Starr said, racism isn’t confined to using the N word, or spraying black people with hoses.

More often than not, racism is internalized and expressed in more subtle ways like “jokingly” telling your black friend to eat fried chicken, or asking your Hispanic friend how they crossed the border (I’ve been asked this too many times to count).

Basically, don’t be this girl:

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Image from Daily Motion Video.

 

Black bodies are inherently political

Black bodies do not have the luxury of remaining apolitical. Black bodies are trained to be defensive from a young age. In the powerful opening scene, Starr and her brother, Seven are given the “traffic stop talk,” or how to not get killed in an encounter with the police. Most kids get the sex talk. At Khalil’s funeral, April points out that even when black people are unarmed, they are still armed because their blackness is perceived as a weapon. The colour blind ideology (“I don’t see colour”), that many well-intentioned white people possess also serves to further negate the real oppression POC have and continue to face. Starr said it best, “If you don’t see my blackness then you don’t see me.”

 

Final Thoughts

“I try to write fiction that’s rooted in reality, and the reality is even scarier than anything that I could write.” -Angie Thomas, author The Hate U Give

 

The film depicts enough brutality and injustice to provoke critical thought, but remains easily digestible to appeal to a wide range of viewers. While it cannot encompass the full extent of the oppression that exists in North America, the film offers insight into a perspective that has been historically and routinely silenced, but not for long.